I wish I were…

This week’sWeekly Writing Challenge asks bloggers to answer the phrase “I wish I were…”

This phrase has so many different meanings. Age, appearance, knowledge, locations, languages…there are so many ways you can answer this question.

What do I wish? I wish sometimes that I could be ‘there,’ not ‘here.’

Hold on with me for a moment while I explain what I mean.

I never realized how big the world was until I took that 36 hour trip over here to South Korea from America. It’s the moment when you realize…hey, there are things that I’m gonna miss out on because I can’t just board a plane and be to my destination within one day. It’s an absolutely terrifying thought sometimes.

There are a couple, quite significant, events that I missed/will be missing in this first year that we are here in Korea. I missed a good friends wedding. It’s always so hard when you’re asked to come and you literally can’t. It’s in our contract that we cannot leave unless it is a death in the family.

I will also miss the pregnancy and birth of my first niece. My sister Jessica is the first one in the family to have a baby. It still seems so foreign to me, and when I see pictures of her online all beautiful and pregnant, I still cannot believe it’s real. And I’ll miss that. I’ll miss the birth of Genesis when she arrives in December (or November if it works out!), as well as the first few months of her growing up.

This is why I wish that there were someway to be ‘there’ instead of sending a text or two or a 30 minute skype session. Instead I’m stuck ‘here,’ a world away, watching life happen on my computer and smartphone screen. Life is so precious…it’s hard when you miss it by not being ‘there.’